I’m having a problem adding depth to my digital work. Alot of the work looks like a flat collage.  I’m going to try and incorporate more 3d elements in the future. I miss how excited I use to be when I played around in Photoshop.I want that magic back. I think that now that I know my financial fututre depends on it, it has become more of a job rather than a “love”. And on top of staying somewhat current in Photoshop, I’m required to learn Cinema 4d, After Effects, and Illustrator while staying commercial yet creative.

I REFUSE to be one of those people who graduate with a degree that have a hard time landing a position because I thought the school was going to magically make me a better artisit. I’m too old for that. And at one point I got mad at myself for picking the school I attend now, because it seems that some people who attend there decided they wanted to be “artsy” three months before they started.

But I’ve realized that if everyone that graduated from an art school thrived, the design fields would be over saturated. So I quickly got over trippin’ about that.

I want to be good at my job. I read somewhere to “not let your classes get in the way of your education”. I’m not utilizing my time wisely I should be doing something creative everyday but I’m throwing out excuses and letting this whole thing drown me.

I’m not down, I’m just aware.